*In a Nut Shell

Friday Morning Musings of a Pregnant Lady

I didn’t get the response I was hoping for, in reality I hardly got anything at all! However, the few comments and private reachings out to me about my new blog endeavors about diabetes, pregnancy, and motherhood that I did receive has pushed me in a decision to do it. It’ll be a while before I get things going because I have some plotting and planning to do, so I will keep you posted!

I am 9ish weeks away from delivery. The kids asked me earlier this week if I’d be happy the baby came now, but after my initial thoughts of “YES!!!” I decided that I would much prefer staying pregnant in order to avoid living in the hospital as baby got stronger and bigger to come home after an early birth.

The way the baby responds to certain things reminds me more and more of my pregnancy with Phillip. I’m not going to lie: the thought sort of terrifies me. He is such a good kid now, but my goodness was he an awful baby. I don’t think I can handle a round two right now! Your will be done, Lord, not mine….but, PLEASE! ;)

I was touching base with one of my cousins-in-law who is due any minute with her 7th. We were talking about pregnancy and motherhood and how it has been going in our 7th go-around, in our 30’s vs our 20’s, etc. Pregnancy is definitely not as easy as it was, and like she said, you’d think after so many that these kids would just fall out already! Motherhood is not for the faint of heart; I no longer wonder at how many saints are mothers. Having frequent conversations with my friends about what they’re experiencing really helps me in a moral support kind of way, but it also helps me decipher what I am feeling physically to determine what is “normal” and what is most likely “diabetic related”.

At the end of the day, though, I am grateful for God’s blessings that come in forms of loving whispers as well as painful smacks of a stick*. Even though I can’t fathom why He has intended the path of our Christian lives to be difficult; up a straight, narrow, rocky path; camels passing through eyes of a needle; He reminds us over and over again in the Old and New Testament that it is going to be a struggle to get to Him in Heaven. But, just as many times, if not more, He reminds us to trust Him; to be not afraid; His burden is [actually] light; He doesn’t ask of us what He hasn’t already endured.

My goodness that is so freakin’ powerful! And, scary. But, if I could guess, I would guess God’s intentions are possibly one of two things. Or both. Or more. Or not.

The first is: Maybe God wants our longing for Him in Heaven to be the only thing we hold on to at the end of the day. All of this: our spouses, kids, home, life, can be gone tomorrow! But, we still have our promise of Him and His magnificent, eternal love. I read in a book about Purgatory last year that there are countless souls who have served their final cleansing of their sins, but still aren’t permitted into Heaven because their love for God isn’t perfect or pure or strong enough yet. (side note: Could you imagine?????)

And, second: Maybe God wants us to use our struggles to help the salvation of souls who have nobody to pray for them. We often pray for our immediate family, close friends, and family & friends that pop up in need of a prayer for one intention or another. But, what about the souls who are searching but have, or think they have, nowhere to turn? The lonely. The forgotten. The lost and rebellious. Maybe God wants us to remember to pray for more than our “circle”. We all have free will to choose God, or not, but prayer is never a wasted endeavor.

I am faced with so much being a mom to seven, completely unique little persons, “doing” pregnancy, being a helpful and loving wife to the most selfless husband, and diabetes. My heart is stretched and pulled, and my mind wonders and questions. There is so much that simply requires faith, and taking one step at a time, one day at a time. But, the thing that comes most natural to me is my relationship with Lowell. I use that as a building block for all the other things I am faced with. It is easiest to see, know, love and serve God via my marriage than anywhere else. Having Lowell as my life partner strengthens my love for God and in turn truly helps me with all other points in life. It is so true when you hear that your relationship with your spouse is first and most important and everything else will fall into it’s proper place and order.

What say you, blogosphere? Any interesting thoughts on these ramblings of a pregnant mom?


*Thanks for the analogy, Bug!

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Spread the word, or no?

I am a Type 1 Diabetic and have been for 20 years. I use a Medtronic Paradigm insulin pump and have a Dexcom G5 Continuous Glucose Monitor (CGM). In 20 years, I have only experienced one major, negative affect: a low blood sugar seizure in the middle of the night in February 2017.

I am Roman Catholic, a little “crunchy” and uninterested in chemical contraception. So, in addition to our Religious beliefs, for personal beliefs as well, we are open to life.

Lowell and I have been married for nearly 12 years and are expecting our 7th baby. I end up delivering large babies, but never due to uncontrolled diabetes. I have maintained a1C’s of 6.0-6.5 during my pregnancies, and all our babies are healthy as can be. When I delivered our 4th, all 10 pounds 10 ounces of him, my OB shook my hand and said he believed I was built to build and deliver big babies!

I want to share my diabetic story, including my having more than 1 or 2 kids, as a Type 1 Diabetic. I don’t know any T1D women who have had more than 2 kids, but I know a handful of T1D men who have 3+ kids with their wives and are open to having more.

In all my internet searches over the years, all I can find is mostly info for Gestational Diabetes. And discouragement for T1D mothers to have more than one or two kids and for no clear reasons why. 

Is this something that would be followed? Do you know diabetics, or folks in general, who would benefit from my story? I realize I am probably going to have to dig up some scientific facts or information from time to time, which I can and will do!, but this will mostly be about my experiences and journey as a Diabetic mom.

Based on the kind of response I get, I may start a different blog specifically for that. If there is only a little interest, I will probably just post here and tag it in it’s own category.

So, talk to your friends and your friends friends. Maybe share this post via your fav social media outlets to help me get feelers out there? And comment, comment, comment here. Please. Let me know what sort of things are of interest based on what I have been through.

I have been praying about this for some time, and woke up this morning thinking I should put it out there to see if maybe 2018 will include a new mission for me to shine some actual light on child bearing possibilities for diabetics.

*In a Nut Shell

Real Quick, before 2017 signs out…

Once upon a time, there was this amazing and beautiful life worth documenting all the times of all the weeks in all the months.

Then, life happened! Much to the dismay of this beautiful life’s documentator,  posts and updates of the fab life became fewer and farther between with hopes that family and Instagram pals would catch the gist of things in passing photos and text messages via the interwebs and smartphones.

Here we are. Here I am. The proud documentator of this blog and our amazing life. (I know “document-tator” isn’t a word, but it seems to work for this here and now.) I am going to wrap up our latest happenings and close 2017 BEFORE 2017 closes on me.

Set… Go!

2017 has been one hell of a roller coaster for our family! Some places we could have gone without, but over all I would say it has been mostly filled with blessings even when the crosses have seemed more awful than beautiful.

Lowell closed the doors to his business after receiving a diagnosis of severe wood allergies. The poor man suffered so much this summer with what we thought was seasonal allergies and poison oak breakout(s), but we finally found a doctor who knew what to test for and the tests were all positive for most of pet dander, most pollen, and every kind of wood that could be tested for. The nurse said the flare ups on his skin where they did the testing should disappear by the next morning, but his allergy is so severe it took nearly 3 days for Lowell to be fully recovered. So, we were faced with the job dilemma once again with the ultimate question attached to each possible job: What kind of health insurance do you have?

It is an unfortunate thing, but health care is hardly “care” when it comes to diabetics. We spend more money each month keeping me alive than we do on rent and groceries. Even with insurance, copays and deductibles are just painful. So, Lowell has decided after attending a few job fairs and talking to lots of various employers, he really is the most attracted to law enforcement and government jobs. It is truly where is passion lies. I mean, it really is perfect fit for him, no? He has the perfect personality for it and has always thrived in that setting of community and brotherhood like he experienced at St Michael’s for highschool and again during his time in the Navy. Plus, he is super dreamy in a uniform! I have always been nervous about the idea of him in law enforcement, but he is a strong man who knows how to take care of himself, so I know I can count on him coming home. It’s taken a long time to find peace in believing that, and I already am praying that he remains safe wherever God opens the door for him. We have been working on talking to all the local agencies, finding out who their health insurance providers are, and narrowing down from there who Lowell will apply with as the departments open for new candidates in the new year.

In the meantime, he has gotten a job as a fleet and service mechanic for a local metal building construction company. He absolutely loves it! His boss is his same age and has 7 kids, so he totally gets where Lowell is coming from and is sympathetic and understanding to our unique needs as a family. Not that we have many!, just that the possibility is out there and can happen at the drop of a hat, or blood sugar. ;)

The kids are doing so well at school! We have mostly A’s and a few C’s. Felicity is still struggling with Math, but George is really coming leaps and bounds with his reading and spelling. Phillip is the apple of both his teacher and his teacher’s aid’s eye. We are on Christmas break until the 8th and it has been such a nice time. We have had pretty chilly temps lately, so we’ve spent alot of time indoors drinking hot cocoa and playing games that were received for Christmas.

I am 26 weeks pregnant. Surprise! incase you didn’t know yet. Baby is due on Grandma Ruth’s birthday, April 11. She would have been extra proud of this great grand just for that reason alone, I am pretty sure of it. Over all, the pregnancy has gone well, even with the horrendous health insurance road blocks we have encountered along the way. Baby is growing healthy and feels quite strong based on it’s daily aerobics and exercises. At my last appointment with the high risk doctor, aka perinatologist, she said that everything is looking fantastic. So, now I just need to keep my newly developed uncooperative blood sugars more tightly reigned. There is already some evidence of a bit of extra amniotic fluid, so I am anticipating a 37 week delivery (sorry, Grandma!). We shall see what the good Lord has in store for us, though. Please pray for my health and in turn our baby’s health; we are a packaged deal.

I am not sad to you go, 2017, you’ve been one for the record books, that’s for sure! We have hurt and loved hard this year, and have stretched and grown as individuals and as a family. We are no longer a carpenter’s family, but we are pretty close to expert in all things health insurance and Obama Care. Well, if there is such a thing as being an expert in it. And, we are closer knit and have thicker skins to carry us in to the new year as an armor for ourselves in helping others by our example and experiences.

I guess this sounded a little on the gloomy side, but we are excited to see what great things God has waiting for us in 2018 and are grateful for all that 2017 has taught us. We love you all and thank God to have each of you in our corner, whispering a Hail Mary for us now and then. See you next year!

*In a Nut Shell

Updated Ramblings

It is officially fall. My most favorite season! I think living on the east coast sealed the deal for me. The beauty, the colors, the crisp air… I would go back every year during this time to relive it! I look forward to enjoying all things fall decor each year, even though it hasn’t felt autumn when it actually becomes autumn since I lived on the east coast. It is still so calming and colorful and wonderful to see and smell all the things fall out and around. So, this year I went all out and just hung up my fall wreath. HaHa! There just isn’t enough spaces to share with knick knacks without having to move them 5 times a day because life.

The kids are doing well in school and love it all except getting up super early to get ready and leave ;). George is still struggling with his spelling so it makes for lower marks. His teacher let’s him make up alot of his work, but it isn’t worth a whole grade, so we have stepped up our reading and writing at home to improve and cement the knowledge that seems trapped in his head. He is thrilled about it [not]!!!!! And, Felicity is having a tough time bouncing between multiplication and fractions because she hasn’t done a good job of memorizing her facts, but that too has been improving the past week or so. Phillip is the only student in his Kindergarten class who has maintained good behavior and loves to boast about it each day when I pick him up! He has learned so much just a few weeks in; I am so proud of him. Faith is doing leaps about bounds better with homework and assignments than she was doing last year. She has settled into a nice little routine and is coming along quite nicely.

Karolina and Anastasia are loving being mistresses of the house during the day. Their friendship has really blossomed now that they only have each other. Karolina says she and Anastasia are best buddies! They play all sorts of make believe games, chase the chickens around, and take Daisy for walks around the yard.

I get lots done most days. When we get back from dropping the school kids off, I usually will have another cup of coffee and do some computer work for my business or Lowell’s, and then jump into a chore or twelve. The most difficult thing for me to accomplish is a shower. I can mow the lawn, fold all the laundry, scrub bathrooms and clean the kitchen, and vacuum the house with barely a peep of want or need from the little girls. But, the minute I decide it is time to cleanse my grimy self, Heaven help us all! I was trying to remember how I did it when I only had Faith and Felicity, and it came to me: they took naps. Karolina naps occasionally, and Anastasia has always been a poor napper. I am not even bothered by their random desire of neediness; what bothers me is their insistence on their presence in the bathroom with me. Oh well. Just another day in the life! They say I will miss these days… Now, I am sure I will not miss these wanting-to-shower-alone days, but I will hold on to making the most of it while keeping a smile on my face!

Lowell has gone into business for himself (Have I talked about this yet? Forgive my mom brain if I have!) and his work load just keeps piling up. It is such a blessing, but he needs some help. If you know any honest workers looking for some hard work, send them our way please! ;) I am a consultant for utility company called Ambit. We sell gas and electricity, and solar in some places, in all the deregulated states of America, all of Japan, and in Canada too. You have your same provider, just your bill will come from Ambit. *Sales Pitch to Follow Below*

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I still haven’t picked up a book that I talked about a post or two ago, but I have been watching John Adams on Amazon on the random evening I have a few minutes, a football game isn’t on, and I don’t have to be up at 5:50 to push the kids out the door for school. Needless to say, I am on episode 5 and I have been watching for over a month! ;) Tom Hanks did it as an HBO series along the same real-life lines that he did Band of Brothers. I recently watched a girlie movie based on a Louisa May Alcott book called The Inheritance and Lowell and I watched the new Ben-Hur movie last weekend. I know we are mostly way behind the times, but we don’t watch regular TV or go to the/rent movies, so we never know whats “out there” until it shows up on Prime. (Or my mom and sisters text about what they’ve seen or want to see!)

Random side note to close: This week is school picture week! I am so excited to see how they turned out. I will share anything silly that turns up when I get them in!